heal for you

i want you close enough
and near enough
so that it's unclear
where you end
and I begin

your sleepy eyes
and bitten mouth
all over my
eager skin

you don't have to say
all the words
you left
unsaid

just climb with me
into the dreamy
promise
of my bed

i don't expect
you to fix us
i don't mean to start
a fight

but i believe
in you and i
and that we
can make this right

the night is long
and dark
and gets colder
by the breeze

there's not much time
and if you stay,
i'd like to
tell you, please

that i bled for you
and you have scars
that much
we know is true

but i cut myself
and now i'd really
just like to
heal for you.

Sometimes

i'm just not sure

if falling in love

is giving in

or giving up.

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you tied me up
and fed me roses
until I was pink
and frail
and with wide-eyed wonder
I let you cover
my face
with a little veil

and I waited for you
with greedy hands
and a hungry
little mouth
for love
or something similar
for anything
but doubt

but you never came
when I cried aloud
for fear of beasts
and night
when winter crept
inside my bones
and the wind blew out
the lights

so I found a way
down the stairs
and to the room
where you slept
and I kissed your mouth
and bit your lips
and for a moment, wept

for a love that had ended
on the day it was born
for an impossible,
beautiful lie
I wept for the living,
the breathing moments
that were always destined
to die

and I wept for you
for I could no longer be
your pretty
little toy
and you couldn't be
my puppeteer
my only source
of joy

you took no notice
so I wiped my face
on the corner
of your sleeve
and as I left
I almost heard
you whisper
“please don't leave”

I'll never know
if you heard me cry
if you wanted me
to go
but I always knew
you meant the best
and for that
I love you so.